My Anxiety Attack

My Fiance Jeff went on a business trip and I told him I would pick him up from the air port. I have been to the air port about a hundred times. For some reason this time I took a wrong turn and got lost. I called Jeff and told him that I have no idea where I am. I started screaming at him because I was so lost and and in my head it was his fault because I was picking him up. He kept telling me to pull over so that I can relax and tell him where I was. I screamed again off the top of my lungs saying that there is NO where for me to pull over even though there was. I was so frustrated. I kept telling him that his dad should have picked him up and I just want to go home. I didn’t know where I was! I kept screaming at Jeff and panicking and crying. I almost got into an accident about 10 times. I finally found a parking lot. He used his GPS to figure out where I was. I was still screaming at him telling him that I hate him and and that I hate what I was going through. Of course I do not hate him – I love him with all of my heart. But at the time, I took everything out on him. He finally told me to leave the parking lot and I finally found my way to the air port. I calmed down once I got there and saw him. He drove the rest of the way home. He knows what is going on with me thank goodness. I felt terrible. He even bought me a coffee on the way home. It was so hard to figure out what happened. I do not scream like that and I think he was shocked as much as I was. My throat hurt for the rest of the night because of the yelling and screaming. I hate having Anxiety!

March 11, 2010 · Kelly · No Comments
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